Saturday, May 30, 2009

Pop My Cherry!

Today is the first good Saturday at work I've ever had. It was full of fun, a small amount of drama that didn't last long, mfriends and I cutting up and the assistant store manager Jamie warming up to me. We also had Jamie as a closing manager which usually sucks in all capitals, but today we got out thirty minutes early! It was amazing!

I was in charge of lightbulbs. Now what this means is I have to front them (pull the boxes to the edge of the shelves) and pull the lightbulbs forward in their boxes. I've had to do this many times but there was this one lightbulb...this one stubborn little fucker who just wouldn't go into his box the right way. I tried for a good five minutes then got so frustrated I threw it to the back of the rack and had the heart warming satisfaction of hearing it fall between the racks and crash onto the floor sucessfully smashing it into a million pieces. Today, my cherry was popped, I broke my first lightbulb. Greg appluaded between holding his sides and laughing.

(If you're wondering who Greg is; he's my 'grandpa'. Everyone thinks I'm his prodical child.)

In other news, the sock theif known as Ritt has eaten all of the socks in the house and is now turning to shoes...

In other, other news I must now go through my toughest choice of the day; Strawberry Cheesecake Icecream, or Cheesecake Brownie Icecream.


Friday, May 22, 2009


I was so excited about the House season finale, even when I was watching it I was full of laughs and giggles until the end. Jesus, I so didn't need something like that to further my downhill spiral into some funky kind of depression.

This is why I try not to look forward to things...

Except Terminator Salvation, there isn't a thing in that movie that could make me dislike it...I can't wait to see it.

Money issues are getting fixed, one less thing to stress about, but I can still feel the bout of hysteria rolling around inside of me. What the hell, honestly, this is just so unnecessary.

I think I might try to sleep now, and just get up in a few hours and do my room. It sounds like a good plan, of course until morning and then I'll curse myself for such a plan. Oh well...

Thursday, May 21, 2009


I feel a breakdown coming on, and for no damn reason that's good enough to merit a breakdown. I just feel like crying and screaming and pulling my hair out.

My grandmother is coming tomorrow, and I have to clean my room tonight which could take hours upon hours to do because I just brought home a shitload of stuff from my apartment. I'm also hungry, but of course there isn't a damn thing in the house to even munch on and when Mom mentioned me taking her card to go and get something to eat I just sighed in a bitchy way and declined because I don't feel like driving, and even if I did my gas light came on in my car and I have no fucking money to get gas with, so I'll already have to ask her with that.

Then I get paid tomorrow, which would be great except for the now $200+ overdraft fee I have and the $275 that's coming out of my check to go to school loans. I don't have enough money to cover both and Mom said she'd help me but of course either forgot or decided to just let me get more overdrafts.

I have to work tomorrow, but not enough to get an hour lunch which means I can't go home and eat and there isn't anything to take for lunch and I don't have any money to get I'll end up not eating. I actually have to work for the next six days...six of eight, I believe I've mentioned this...did I mention that it's over the busy weekend+Monday of the year? And I have to close which means I'll be there for most likely 11hours?

Did I mention that today at work I was lifting these rather large jugs of water and pulled out my left least, it cracked and now is starting to throb in an interesting way.

Fucking hell. I thought writing all of this crap down would make me feel better, but it is just proving how much of a whiny, pity me, ass I am.

Ugh...and here comes the self-loathing to top it all off.

Fuck me. Stupid ass woman. Stupid ass tantrums and stupid ass PMS. I just need to drown myself.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009


So, I haven't written anything in a little while and I don't think I have anything important to write about now...well, not yet anyway.

I'm crossing my fingers for some things, and sitting on the edge of my seat for others but over all I'm mad because I have to work eight days in a row. At least I'll have a good check, which I need after overdrafting my account for a good two-hundred bucks. -cringe-

I haven't been up to much lately, just working and coming home talking to my pookie punkin peachy pie Sai and sleeping. I've been trying to write and finally started to again, which is a great thing I thought my love for writing had dried up! I haven't worked on a fanfiction or anything, just my book. I think that not working on writing other things, and reading books make me want to write my own stuff even more so I'm going to try that for a while.

Oh yeah, two interesting things happened today. One, my Dad was being goofy and trying to sneak up on me and he fell down our stairs. I instantly made him lay on the couch and made him take a motrin800. Poor fellow, he's going to be so sore tomorrow. The second thing is I was getting ready to leave work and I saw someone dragging these eight foot poles with these hooks on the end across the floor while trying to move a ladder. So me being the sweety that I am walked over to help and I picked up the bundle of poles. Unfortunately one of the poles wasn't attached to the others and swung down and caught me right across the cheek bone, so I'm sure I'm going to look like I was back handed tomorrow.

I'm going to tell them my pimp did it.

Now I'm sitting down, waiting for Sai and watching some show on UFO's with Dad who I don't know why he watches them because all he does is squirm in his chair and call it bullshit. And now he's bitching at the commercials. Dear god, the man needs a life...

So while I'm waiting, I suppose I'll try writing, if I can. I hope. Or maybe take a nap. A nap sounds nice. Mm...chocolate milk.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

What Is With The World?

Seriously now...I'm single, and nothing happens. I'm complicatedly single, and I get flirted with a even asked out for drinks by two different guys. One of them being a manager from another Lowe's store!


I mean really?

Ugh, men are just so...

Thursday, May 7, 2009


I kept meaning to post these pictures of the stuff I've been making...but I always forget. But here they are now!
This is Dad's birthday was so good.
This is an orange cake with cream cheese frosting and melted vanilla chips on it and around the edges...

Choco cream-puffs!

My first batch of cream puffs ever...they were so great.
I need to start baking things again, I got a few new recipes so I guess when I get paid I'll start up again.
Whoohoo for stressless baking!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009


For some reason on the way home, mid song my CD player in my car stopped working so I shrugged in a bit of frustration and flipped through radio channels. When nothing popped up that was interesting I hit the AM button and hit scan. Radio shows and static are what met me, then something interesting caught my attention. It was an educational discussion on the existence of alien life brought up because of half human/animal pictures on a cave wall from dear lord knows how many years ago. I listened for a minute, then wrote it off as something silly before flipping the channel again. When the scan button settled on the next available signal my ears were met with a high pitched noise of great annoyance then barely heard voices talking about the Mayan calendar. I sat in my car, in the dark for a good ten minutes, trying to hear what they were saying exactly then gave up and came inside.

Now I'm sitting here thinking of all of the logical reasons I can how the world isn't going to end in 2012 because I don't think I'm done living yet. Then I ran across this very interesting statement about the Mayan calendar.

"December 21, 2012 marks the end of the Long Count and Precession Cycle. A fascinating astronomical occurrence will take place that day. The sun will be seen in a conjunction with the crossing point of the galactic equator and the ecliptic which is referred by the Mayans as the Sacred Tree. Since this is due to take place on the winter solstice, this should provide clear evidence that the proper end day of the Mayan calendar is December 21, 2012. Some say December 22,nd, 23rd or even other dates. However, the solstice was an important day to the Mayans and it is logical to think that they would conclude their calendar cycle on this day, coupled with the fact of the rare astronomical occurrence set to take place that day."

This statement interests me greatly...I'll have to look into the Mayan Calendar and the end of the world more closely.

...It's going to be a long, morbid and creepy night no doubt...

Saturday, May 2, 2009


I wanted to write something...but, what was it?